hellic friday

sad to know someone gave up.
i knew she was strong.
i knew she was..
but then she fades..
i love her, she needed time
i always think of her,
the moment i have let go of my emotions
i shouldn't have let her know
i shouldn't have to..
bond between the two of us would be great
no pains, no looping thoughts, not lot of worries
but its worth to have those, at least i've expressed
told me, "kaya ka ba nagmamahal ng may mahal na iba kasi di ka ready sa commitment?"
another, "kasi ung mahal moko noon, at single ako, di sapat na reason ung takot ka"
and "iwan moko ulet"
all i could grab to breathe is to say "BYE"
its my weakness
a black hole, absorbs everything to darkness
till be charged and normalized again.
yeah, u may throw those words to me
for i am one big bin of pains and hatred,
shielded with a uncontrollable ferocity and courage
yet, cowardice circulates within my heart.
tightly secured, burst outs anger when endangered.