2hrs

time is like an infinite stance
on a journey energizing each
one of us to pursue our paths,
binding us to new realms
we can only pass on it once,
filling us with wisdom and ideals
and responsibility for the young ones.

time is an enduring education
for each mind open for experimentation
on life, career, and emotion
enabling us to understand most situation
to grow and share our intuition

time is an inevitable challenge
on everything we decide to change
or every moment we want to retain

time is the one who will define our lives
who will define our beings
and will define us from life.

the sigh

putting a dot on our beginning
anyone would say im crazy for doing
months past but still having
hard time getting over loving
is this my second time deeply falling?
a real love for so long im wishing?
are these regrets that i'm feeling?
still feeling my arms wrap around your being
wherein been too long i've stopped reaching
i'm still afraid your voice i'll be hearing
still afraid of the end of what i'll be starting
silence.. that may help, i hope it will be helping.
but with you, i'm still longing.
with you, i keep on loving.

going under

events have screwed up
hollow mind seeking hope
from antiquities of barren life
defied the spirit laws and harmony
and dumped a honey filled heart
believing that heart would freed
from the gnashing love sown from the dead
amplifying the solitary plead
screaming for more hate
crying for more heartbreak
tormenting this flesh til it bleed

white flag

months have rolled
silence still ripples
waiting for the drought
and for the tormented hearts
to settle and be mended
things may have been failed
to shed tears on what we've left
and whisper with ourselves
our fault, we should have stayed
all things can be discussed
misunderstandings can be settled
i'm sorry, months of being silenced
months of us not being part of our lives.

the silence

drilling the crystals of hydrogen
into the depths of my plain haven
to be back on my shell again
for a deep sleep and shields be hardened
and my fading soul be darkened


no more.. no more...
:)

.♥.

Someone's gone away
Forever
Someone's gone away
Too soon
Did they take him
Up to Heaven
Or did they take him
To the moon?
Nobody answers
Sll her questions
So she gazes at the skies
Maybe someday
When she's all
Grown up
She'll join them
In their lies.
And just before
She turns away
She crafts a little smile:
"someday i will take this flowers to the sky."

.♥.

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say

coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

.♥.

"Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?"




sa bawat yapak ng bukas,
anino'y kayakap ng iyong bakas.
duyan nang iyong kahulugan
ang buhay na aking kulungan.
sa bawat sulyap sa kanluran
kasabay mga bulong ng ating kahapon.
mga namuong pangarap'y dumadampi
sa bawat luhang nananaghoy sa ngiti'y nakakubli.
tumitigil ang lahat ng katwiran
sa t'wing alaala'y sasaglit at ako'y hahagkan
at sa bawat hinaharap na hininga'y
kalungkuta't aninong tumatangis yayakapi't siyang aagapay.

:'(

Blue Valentine

a sad story of a rebound lover turned to husband, tragic and inconsiderate.

late

it was then that temper has risen
and moment has blinded you to listen
i know it was not right to keep you waiting
but with this test i can do nothing
your stares together with your silence
coldness that i couldn't bear within
sat at the corner, til i ran out of patience
i didn't mean to, and thinking i mustn't have been
i'm sorry, really sorry, next time no more waitin
thank you for listening, and the little book you've given
helped us alot and drove us away from colliding
mem-umur? the freaking stare? things that made us laughing
few hours that made us a day, completely as i am wishing

the candle

with the immense silent darkness
one courageous candle rippled its flares
lighting up the vacuumed space
showing how wonderful it is
to be seen on light's shades
how interesting it is
to be known with light's flames

with the totally knitted shadows
the candle stood up and glows
casting hues on the infinite walls
incarnated glistening smiles
reminding and teaching the basics
of life, of love, of the realities
and dwindling life and soul's hopelessness

cookie monster

sweet as a butter cookie
living life happily
with thoughts of being silly
paints smiles to his honey
uneven moods others would see
filling the day with talks so lovely
dreamed remaining life to be happy
funny in ways he don't seemed to be
just to complete the day of his honey
teasing and laughing from the jealousy
play with temper's mood nicely
and sway the emotions soothly
a warm cuddle moving their hearts closely
with sparkling eyes blushes the scenery
resting their hands together warmly
and paint a slow paced chuckle to end the day.

past server 1

i did not existed all along
i wasn't there where i thought i belonged

"what will i lose? i wont lose something i dont have or never had. do what makes you happy. don't use me as a reason for what you do..."

duped, taunted, laughed at, disowned
my belief now, can't do anything about it
because it is as simple as doesn't care, all along.

:) i'll just paint a smile to remember those things.

dosage is gone

with the illness and pain
medication drips and be in vain
addicted and crippling the sane
now numb and uneasy membrane

the power of every drop
with every electric zap
embezzled life's gap
to fill and heal the crack

everything's meaningless
whirling sorrows and griefs
hallucinating for joy and laughters
to have a so-called life upbeats

used to nurse the soul
and gave bath to feverish whole
with tenderness and passion's shawl
lovely feeling sought till i fall

emotions

i'm tired of writing
i have to stop believing
and deny, air's existence,
love's romantic definitions,
positive outlook in living,
and longed life have been dreaming
words are not persuasive for faith
actions are not good enough to hope
i'm tired, and want to rest
in silence, deep in my darkness.

why do i love you

you're walking with me
even in the most risky journey
you talk to me
even when everyone shuns me
you want to be with me
even complex life runs through me
you rest on me
all the time, specially when you're lonely
you cuddle me
even though i'm sleeping and empty
you share the air you breathe with me
if times death is coming upon me
you give me light
even in my darkness where i flee
you want to touch me
whenever i'm happy or lonely
you love spending time with me
even though you're always busy
you cry for me
when my tears cannot flow freely
you work hard for the best
in order for you to please me
you believe me
even though everyone lost their faith on me
you paint smiles on me
whenever i'm tired and so snappy
you always miss me
even you're always with me
you love me
despite of my flaws and being crazy


"i will always love you",
whispers and murmurs on my darkness.
i may be away for all of the days,
my heart and soul are always with you.
longing to be together and serve my love
to be the sole heir and lover of my heart
for a lifelong love you worth
till our souls will depart above.

i love you.
i love you so much.



:')''' 14-feb-2011 happy heart's day....

angel's punishment

war.. destruction...
tear.. damnation..
hate..

glance

bewitching the aesthetic me
from those ruins you ought to see
every stance i keep myself busy
ending it with a night you in my memory
thoughts of you that made me plea
for a self changing love i dreamed to be
struggled but mostly things are happy
summons your presence daily
tied myself with you hourly
preferred to be with you than to be free
smiled from the pains of reality
apprehended these times of being lonely
with the laughters shared joyfully
filling empty you, with your ghost so lovely
happy, contented though away from sanity
hallucinations lingers till you fade away
till pain will turn to ashes and drips freely
shields are up and now walks the journey
i'm thanking you for all you've done to me
worthwhile to take a glance, of me being free




‎"I know I promised myself not to write about her anymore, but that’s like ignoring the presence of oxygen and sunlight—an inappropriate metaphor but you get the point." -- Lourd de Veyra

i miss you too...
:')

dilemma of loving

sweetness with every gaze
chuckling smiles between hearts
like artistic paintings
smoothly swayed by brush.
beyond any explanations
crossing over all reasons.
caress that each one awaits
whispers on same trajectories
precise, on time, and sways.
joy on each other's presence
untangled thoughts unleash
no worries, united in all breakdowns.
laterally breathe with hopes
with sound and still faiths.
tears that deter souls' absence,
poured on each pockets for acceptance,
and seal the bond for each heart's.
dream above life's facts
shiver on every breathe taking moments
glide on every worst scenarios
crazy to put every steps on odds
worth the tears of all hearts
naive with all pains it will cause



.♥.



bitter from all of the thoughts
as tears run down the cheeks
where those smile used to rest
skewed and distorted strokes
of fresh and lonely tints
logical from all the actions
unable reason out those beliefs
and every single heart's cries
alone, wandering in the darkness
striving to survive on ample care from foreign smiles
missing trust, undirected and lost
tears bundled with pains regrets
believed im owned, slapped with all the frauds
contained the soul as locked shackles
chilling on amid sorrows and griefs
while falling down to the pit of ghost memories
withdrawing care and confining all pains
as a drifter walking on life's complexities
picking up all your left behind tears
embroidering it as shawl for the cold nights
mumbling the love we used care down to our sleeps.

i smiled

:')

the company
laughters
tears
the excitement
thrill
fun
the family
friends
work
the runaways
church
cafeteria
brox coffee

:')

her hug
kisses
smiles
touch
care
her love



remembering all these words
regenerating the scenes
recalling the firsts
first talk
first hold of hands
first date
first dinner
first lunch
first breakfast
first cuddle
first kiss
the first time i felt love
in my life
:')



take care always.

smile

i hope you're happy now




my lost love

and

warm kisses

be with you forever.



bye travian
:')

yay!

they're all BUMMERS!

hahaha

"i hate you all.."
=))
hahaha

the CHM

coding a help file for the system
happy, a guide is being drawn
for the prototype's overview
with a fraud smile, its done.

how bout making CHM for life?
a compilation of texts
and without images.
facts that made the being
2011, 3 decades of living,
had enough words to draw a book
enough ideas to be painted

how bout a blog?
1 blog with entries of facts and fucks
;))


"life is a joyride, enjoy it.."
(wink)

who am i?

im...



:')

part of the journey
count some more years,
walk some more,
darkness will be silenced.
who cares?
no one, nobody really.
"they come and go.."
and that's reality.
you're good as "passer by"

:')

penguin

silly
funny
cute
cuddly
where a heart longs to rest
stays when your away

did you know that when a penguin found his mate, he will stay with her forever?

.♥.


would you be my penguin?

:">









"My Paper Heart"

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that
I know moving on is,
Easiest when I am around you.

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips, are sealed for her
My tongue is,
Tied to, a dream of being with you
To settle for less, is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

Summer time, the nights they are so long
The leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

.♥.

there's no point of being depressed,
with or without, life must go on.
i am strong...
i am..
i will.

.♥.

missin u..

spaghetti loop of "Life"

boot sectors are down,
memory usage burns,
accessibility hangs,
disabled structured operation
through frequent crashing
and processor intrusions
now unable handle exception.
fed by zeros and ones,
pushed by procedures and routines,
journalizing new instructions
in ext4 filesystems.
for new operating system
minimizing bugs and trojans
and flush some obsolete commands.
with every queue delay instance,
be reading your data compilation
and help this ocular lens
be impenetrable by infections.
to jam and freeze the keys from
automated and redundantly pressing " :(( "

-0 ^_^ 0- a year round music for 2011

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions, they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

(Wish) cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of (swing, swing, swing)
My heart (my heart) is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

sad thoughts

hate is indescribable feeling
a thought that swallows the being
whether fallen or have risen
nothing matters, unwilling to listen
blinded and tricked with sound maiden
lifeless now and has no meaning
hope desired and love dreaming
nothing, all crumbled and beaten
all sad thoughts will be living
as a curse on life never have been
will hate and will always hating