dilemma of loving

sweetness with every gaze
chuckling smiles between hearts
like artistic paintings
smoothly swayed by brush.
beyond any explanations
crossing over all reasons.
caress that each one awaits
whispers on same trajectories
precise, on time, and sways.
joy on each other's presence
untangled thoughts unleash
no worries, united in all breakdowns.
laterally breathe with hopes
with sound and still faiths.
tears that deter souls' absence,
poured on each pockets for acceptance,
and seal the bond for each heart's.
dream above life's facts
shiver on every breathe taking moments
glide on every worst scenarios
crazy to put every steps on odds
worth the tears of all hearts
naive with all pains it will cause



.♥.



bitter from all of the thoughts
as tears run down the cheeks
where those smile used to rest
skewed and distorted strokes
of fresh and lonely tints
logical from all the actions
unable reason out those beliefs
and every single heart's cries
alone, wandering in the darkness
striving to survive on ample care from foreign smiles
missing trust, undirected and lost
tears bundled with pains regrets
believed im owned, slapped with all the frauds
contained the soul as locked shackles
chilling on amid sorrows and griefs
while falling down to the pit of ghost memories
withdrawing care and confining all pains
as a drifter walking on life's complexities
picking up all your left behind tears
embroidering it as shawl for the cold nights
mumbling the love we used care down to our sleeps.

-0 ^_^ 0- a year round music for 2011

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions, they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

(Wish) cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of (swing, swing, swing)
My heart (my heart) is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

sad thoughts

hate is indescribable feeling
a thought that swallows the being
whether fallen or have risen
nothing matters, unwilling to listen
blinded and tricked with sound maiden
lifeless now and has no meaning
hope desired and love dreaming
nothing, all crumbled and beaten
all sad thoughts will be living
as a curse on life never have been
will hate and will always hating

entitled... hush

nothing to prove whose fault
nor why did it went through that
never ending discussion and agreement
wrapping up the day on the last tick
emotions run dry purging the thought
of those imbalanced disagreement
and incumbent immense conflict
cutting the life vein on this hand
soothing the ascending misery of faith
groping for remaining blood to drip
as these dried leaves pricks these aged feet
is breathing still worth a seat?
to live and believe desolation to deplete?
conquered a third of life, still damned
seemingly all of the purpose had left
whistling winds emboss life into a rigid rock
as tuned haunting dreams are blown like dried sand
decorated all the past neatly on this lifeless track

lies on hope

break!!!!! (arrrggghh!!!)
something's wrong with those words
empty soul now again floats
to null being of ciphered thoughts
eyes wide open, on state of madness
tears ain't falling as it flows
occupying my sight near to blindness
least giving hallucinations
those words which laughs and taunts
with furious eyes showing abjections
blunting murmurs that echoes
bouncing to me those blames
you too did on purpose
(arrrggghh!!!)
this sickness
....madness
all i can do is to be on silence




Oh no,
Here it is again.
I need to know
When I will fall in decay.

Something wrong,
With every plan of my life
I didn't really realize that you've been here.

Dolefully Desired
Destiny a lie.

Set me free,
Your heaven's a lie.
Set me free with your love
Set me free.

Oh no,
Here it is again.
I need to know,
When did I choose to betray you?

Something wrong
With all the plans in my life
I didn't realize you've been here.

Dolefully desired
Destiny a lie.

Set me free
Your heaven's a lie.
Set me free with your love
Set me free.

Set me free your heavens a lie.
Set me free with your love
Set me free.

state of mind

hatred wished to join silence
silence embraced hate for comfort
fell on bottomless space
no one can subdue their pace
till the end, hate rules
hate will never depart, will live
not in vile but in peace.

~ prettier way to say...
"leave me alone.."
:'D:'D:'D

kakatuwa

ang sabi niya wag ko daw seryosohin..
e di fine, hindi seseryosohin..
problema ba yun?

syempre naman, bat ba naman niya ako seseryosohin?
kung siya mismo nagsabi, wag ko daw seryosohin..
tama naman di ba?

ahahaha

nakakatuwa
nkakatawa
oppss...
nakakainis
nakakaiyak




~
sayang ulet?
uhmmn.
oks lang, sabi nga nya sakin
"ganun ka naman talaga, madaling makalimot."
sus me, e di gawin ulit.
problema ba yun?

naways.. enjoy your coming day.
makakalimot din ako after sometime..

watching from keeps

another week to ran through
with smoke to breathe on,
an alcohol to dance me to sleep
leaving all my health thoughts.
boredom grin and perfect sighs,
ending up the crying lunacy
within these imperfect flesh.
thankful i still got my bed
completing my action-packed idle days.
having a glance outside my borders
saw new series to bookmark on.
those energy-draining moments,
energized with new words to decode,
new whispers to feed my heart.
mind and heart processing together
formulating theories, and analysis.
answering questions on "how to be with the author".
as i am walking through my darkness
distant from my fort and walls,
sadness lures my being thus
offered strength to face ancient wars.
touched my past, untangling disputes
sadly, failures recoils in its own ways.
let that past find its own self,
i just want to plea for a lasting peace
again, a trance wherein past afraid of and flees.
i want a change, past's change for my angels.
for them when this flesh will elevate its spirit
from this wicked ash turning cell.
i want a life, a new one.
a voice tapped me, "why don't you choose someone."
"away, start your new life with that one."
hmmmn... building a new fort and walls.
i love it, if i'll be doing it for and with you.

hellic friday

sad to know someone gave up.
i knew she was strong.
i knew she was..
but then she fades..
i love her, she needed time
i always think of her,
the moment i have let go of my emotions
i shouldn't have let her know
i shouldn't have to..
bond between the two of us would be great
no pains, no looping thoughts, not lot of worries
but its worth to have those, at least i've expressed
told me, "kaya ka ba nagmamahal ng may mahal na iba kasi di ka ready sa commitment?"
another, "kasi ung mahal moko noon, at single ako, di sapat na reason ung takot ka"
and "iwan moko ulet"
all i could grab to breathe is to say "BYE"
its my weakness
a black hole, absorbs everything to darkness
till be charged and normalized again.
yeah, u may throw those words to me
for i am one big bin of pains and hatred,
shielded with a uncontrollable ferocity and courage
yet, cowardice circulates within my heart.
tightly secured, burst outs anger when endangered.

you are,

all my reasons.
all my senses.
the heart's rhythm
the soul's harmony
a smile, keeps me up high
a pair of hands, molds me worthy
the daily mood swinger
the daily resting place
there holding me, by wind
there kissing me, by soul
everything my thought runs
everything my heart follows
a star, i wanna reach
a soul, i wanna be with
you, whom i love, no one matters
you, who made heart and mind now as one.
a dot who ended the questions
a spark who begun the changes
my life
my soul

:(
someone else's girlfriend
in loved with him
just a dream
a smile, hard to have as reality flashes
a love, who owns the "must haves" i always wanted.
... and always be in my heart,

"i may not be the one beside you,
still, i love you."

another ghost

saw her again, her portraits.
those smiles, touches
memories at the hill top
at the crocodile farm
jack's ridge, at broke
most of all at her father's rested place
missing you, so much.
that i wanna scream right now.
teary eyed now..
thinking how much i love you.
devastating affection we lived
for a couple of months.
lifted our souls more than we thought we could
i loved you and u do too with me.
thought you to be brave and strong.
thought me how to love, how to do it more than myself.
sobs.. its all my heart can do now,
pushing some pearly tears out from my eyes.

aftermath

crushed into the grounds
headaches fainting into heartaches
her silence accused justified reasons
colder than an icicle on wastelands
trepidly walking through as eyes burns
dusted with fowl smell of loneliness
skin scaling from those curses
damned, cast away to forsaken gardens
a pariah, conceals my leper face
into darkness, my affectionate darkness
no more dwelling with the gods
nor with whirling fickle fairies
shuns all dwelling life forms
occupied by hymns and chants
to heal the disarranged stars
renewing its positions and glitz
that will provide me directions
and succumb the last beat to silence...

your pains and me

i prefer to be a sinner then.
i'm reaching out my hand as a friend,
but hatred with self-pity made you stunned
now, im waiting for my smile's respond.
im your friend..
i'll stand beside you and make you laugh.
grab you up if your down,
tap your shoulders when leading to nowhere.
just stay focus on your track
keep you heart and spirit up
walk your journey with freedom
as i do to mine...

there he screams...

with the tune of halik ni hudas.
munching every bytes and codes,
killing every village and troops
berserker marching, insanely they seems.
babbling under water
pulling all the nerve
sweating out black ink.
hahahaha am i bleeding?
with blazing eyes
hazy faced on moonlight
leading a throng of shadows
cutting every soul enlightened
dissolving all life forms of love
creating menace and hatred.
marching under the cloak of darkness.
wind hushes a fading devil screams..

second smile

all those promises
pain within bruised smiles
trampled my silent plains
brought drought and hunger
for love that was shared

away from life
newbies to the wild
smiles to every pains
and laughs at every insults
that's who we are

soul reach each soul
for the life to keep
all those promises to mend
and hearts to cuddle
to breathe and live

as leaves to its branches
and water to earth,
as a friend, a special one
who lightens all day load
faces trials positively with a smile.

again hold this hand
lets walk, laugh, and talk
life's beautiful with you
the meaning's awesome,
... with you.

Surpassing fear in 02112010

its U..

U mean my wholeness n poured new life 2me.

no more alibis y both of us met again.

a mini-chance iv took 2b aligned with U.

every strokes of words, pain n tears, darkness that surrounds shattered from d happiness in which our both ends has enraged.

life's so mean but 8s gr8 because of U...