dosage is gone

with the illness and pain
medication drips and be in vain
addicted and crippling the sane
now numb and uneasy membrane

the power of every drop
with every electric zap
embezzled life's gap
to fill and heal the crack

everything's meaningless
whirling sorrows and griefs
hallucinating for joy and laughters
to have a so-called life upbeats

used to nurse the soul
and gave bath to feverish whole
with tenderness and passion's shawl
lovely feeling sought till i fall

emotions

i'm tired of writing
i have to stop believing
and deny, air's existence,
love's romantic definitions,
positive outlook in living,
and longed life have been dreaming
words are not persuasive for faith
actions are not good enough to hope
i'm tired, and want to rest
in silence, deep in my darkness.

why do i love you

you're walking with me
even in the most risky journey
you talk to me
even when everyone shuns me
you want to be with me
even complex life runs through me
you rest on me
all the time, specially when you're lonely
you cuddle me
even though i'm sleeping and empty
you share the air you breathe with me
if times death is coming upon me
you give me light
even in my darkness where i flee
you want to touch me
whenever i'm happy or lonely
you love spending time with me
even though you're always busy
you cry for me
when my tears cannot flow freely
you work hard for the best
in order for you to please me
you believe me
even though everyone lost their faith on me
you paint smiles on me
whenever i'm tired and so snappy
you always miss me
even you're always with me
you love me
despite of my flaws and being crazy


"i will always love you",
whispers and murmurs on my darkness.
i may be away for all of the days,
my heart and soul are always with you.
longing to be together and serve my love
to be the sole heir and lover of my heart
for a lifelong love you worth
till our souls will depart above.

i love you.
i love you so much.



:')''' 14-feb-2011 happy heart's day....

angel's punishment

war.. destruction...
tear.. damnation..
hate..