the sigh

putting a dot on our beginning
anyone would say im crazy for doing
months past but still having
hard time getting over loving
is this my second time deeply falling?
a real love for so long im wishing?
are these regrets that i'm feeling?
still feeling my arms wrap around your being
wherein been too long i've stopped reaching
i'm still afraid your voice i'll be hearing
still afraid of the end of what i'll be starting
silence.. that may help, i hope it will be helping.
but with you, i'm still longing.
with you, i keep on loving.

going under

events have screwed up
hollow mind seeking hope
from antiquities of barren life
defied the spirit laws and harmony
and dumped a honey filled heart
believing that heart would freed
from the gnashing love sown from the dead
amplifying the solitary plead
screaming for more hate
crying for more heartbreak
tormenting this flesh til it bleed

white flag

months have rolled
silence still ripples
waiting for the drought
and for the tormented hearts
to settle and be mended
things may have been failed
to shed tears on what we've left
and whisper with ourselves
our fault, we should have stayed
all things can be discussed
misunderstandings can be settled
i'm sorry, months of being silenced
months of us not being part of our lives.

the silence

drilling the crystals of hydrogen
into the depths of my plain haven
to be back on my shell again
for a deep sleep and shields be hardened
and my fading soul be darkened


no more.. no more...
:)

.♥.

Someone's gone away
Forever
Someone's gone away
Too soon
Did they take him
Up to Heaven
Or did they take him
To the moon?
Nobody answers
Sll her questions
So she gazes at the skies
Maybe someday
When she's all
Grown up
She'll join them
In their lies.
And just before
She turns away
She crafts a little smile:
"someday i will take this flowers to the sky."

.♥.

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say

coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again

.♥.

"Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?"




sa bawat yapak ng bukas,
anino'y kayakap ng iyong bakas.
duyan nang iyong kahulugan
ang buhay na aking kulungan.
sa bawat sulyap sa kanluran
kasabay mga bulong ng ating kahapon.
mga namuong pangarap'y dumadampi
sa bawat luhang nananaghoy sa ngiti'y nakakubli.
tumitigil ang lahat ng katwiran
sa t'wing alaala'y sasaglit at ako'y hahagkan
at sa bawat hinaharap na hininga'y
kalungkuta't aninong tumatangis yayakapi't siyang aagapay.

:'(

Blue Valentine

a sad story of a rebound lover turned to husband, tragic and inconsiderate.

dosage is gone

with the illness and pain
medication drips and be in vain
addicted and crippling the sane
now numb and uneasy membrane

the power of every drop
with every electric zap
embezzled life's gap
to fill and heal the crack

everything's meaningless
whirling sorrows and griefs
hallucinating for joy and laughters
to have a so-called life upbeats

used to nurse the soul
and gave bath to feverish whole
with tenderness and passion's shawl
lovely feeling sought till i fall

emotions

i'm tired of writing
i have to stop believing
and deny, air's existence,
love's romantic definitions,
positive outlook in living,
and longed life have been dreaming
words are not persuasive for faith
actions are not good enough to hope
i'm tired, and want to rest
in silence, deep in my darkness.

dilemma of loving

sweetness with every gaze
chuckling smiles between hearts
like artistic paintings
smoothly swayed by brush.
beyond any explanations
crossing over all reasons.
caress that each one awaits
whispers on same trajectories
precise, on time, and sways.
joy on each other's presence
untangled thoughts unleash
no worries, united in all breakdowns.
laterally breathe with hopes
with sound and still faiths.
tears that deter souls' absence,
poured on each pockets for acceptance,
and seal the bond for each heart's.
dream above life's facts
shiver on every breathe taking moments
glide on every worst scenarios
crazy to put every steps on odds
worth the tears of all hearts
naive with all pains it will cause



.♥.



bitter from all of the thoughts
as tears run down the cheeks
where those smile used to rest
skewed and distorted strokes
of fresh and lonely tints
logical from all the actions
unable reason out those beliefs
and every single heart's cries
alone, wandering in the darkness
striving to survive on ample care from foreign smiles
missing trust, undirected and lost
tears bundled with pains regrets
believed im owned, slapped with all the frauds
contained the soul as locked shackles
chilling on amid sorrows and griefs
while falling down to the pit of ghost memories
withdrawing care and confining all pains
as a drifter walking on life's complexities
picking up all your left behind tears
embroidering it as shawl for the cold nights
mumbling the love we used care down to our sleeps.

.♥.

there's no point of being depressed,
with or without, life must go on.
i am strong...
i am..
i will.

.♥.

missin u..

i wept

should i sleep?
must have i shunned?
rush of being betrayed,
gnashing of tortured hope,
emotionally whored,
amplified hatred,
soul wished be burned
consuming cries screamed,
wept words from cursed
aphrodite of all undeserved.
crumbled realm succumbed,
a fake joy's aftermath.
from deception was consoled
fidelity godly played
hallucinated faith,
false fate on sight
unacceptable promises dazed
a fallen being , condemned.
a vile spirited droid.
captivated and crippled

darkness' cry

gasping air to breathe
falling on endless pit
tangled emotions cried
to subdue some guilt
all twisted regrets freed
dashing downward beneath
fair heaven's twilight
beamed upon, grappled
to each strand of hope
struggling for a lift

as rain cried tonight

one lonely night over the skies
covered by tickled uncertainties
sprinkling your scent with cold breeze
swaying every emotions this heart could seize
thinking of silence breaking to appease
have i not given the love and kiss
nor the care and presence even miles away of seas
doped with fear and hungered you much more like feast
unfaithful am i? or just playful to please?
closing my eyes, for now til sorrow depletes.