glance

bewitching the aesthetic me
from those ruins you ought to see
every stance i keep myself busy
ending it with a night you in my memory
thoughts of you that made me plea
for a self changing love i dreamed to be
struggled but mostly things are happy
summons your presence daily
tied myself with you hourly
preferred to be with you than to be free
smiled from the pains of reality
apprehended these times of being lonely
with the laughters shared joyfully
filling empty you, with your ghost so lovely
happy, contented though away from sanity
hallucinations lingers till you fade away
till pain will turn to ashes and drips freely
shields are up and now walks the journey
i'm thanking you for all you've done to me
worthwhile to take a glance, of me being free




‎"I know I promised myself not to write about her anymore, but that’s like ignoring the presence of oxygen and sunlight—an inappropriate metaphor but you get the point." -- Lourd de Veyra

i miss you too...
:')

dilemma of loving

sweetness with every gaze
chuckling smiles between hearts
like artistic paintings
smoothly swayed by brush.
beyond any explanations
crossing over all reasons.
caress that each one awaits
whispers on same trajectories
precise, on time, and sways.
joy on each other's presence
untangled thoughts unleash
no worries, united in all breakdowns.
laterally breathe with hopes
with sound and still faiths.
tears that deter souls' absence,
poured on each pockets for acceptance,
and seal the bond for each heart's.
dream above life's facts
shiver on every breathe taking moments
glide on every worst scenarios
crazy to put every steps on odds
worth the tears of all hearts
naive with all pains it will cause



.♥.



bitter from all of the thoughts
as tears run down the cheeks
where those smile used to rest
skewed and distorted strokes
of fresh and lonely tints
logical from all the actions
unable reason out those beliefs
and every single heart's cries
alone, wandering in the darkness
striving to survive on ample care from foreign smiles
missing trust, undirected and lost
tears bundled with pains regrets
believed im owned, slapped with all the frauds
contained the soul as locked shackles
chilling on amid sorrows and griefs
while falling down to the pit of ghost memories
withdrawing care and confining all pains
as a drifter walking on life's complexities
picking up all your left behind tears
embroidering it as shawl for the cold nights
mumbling the love we used care down to our sleeps.

i smiled

:')

the company
laughters
tears
the excitement
thrill
fun
the family
friends
work
the runaways
church
cafeteria
brox coffee

:')

her hug
kisses
smiles
touch
care
her love



remembering all these words
regenerating the scenes
recalling the firsts
first talk
first hold of hands
first date
first dinner
first lunch
first breakfast
first cuddle
first kiss
the first time i felt love
in my life
:')



take care always.

smile

i hope you're happy now




my lost love

and

warm kisses

be with you forever.



bye travian
:')

yay!

they're all BUMMERS!

hahaha

"i hate you all.."
=))
hahaha

the CHM

coding a help file for the system
happy, a guide is being drawn
for the prototype's overview
with a fraud smile, its done.

how bout making CHM for life?
a compilation of texts
and without images.
facts that made the being
2011, 3 decades of living,
had enough words to draw a book
enough ideas to be painted

how bout a blog?
1 blog with entries of facts and fucks
;))


"life is a joyride, enjoy it.."
(wink)

who am i?

im...



:')

part of the journey
count some more years,
walk some more,
darkness will be silenced.
who cares?
no one, nobody really.
"they come and go.."
and that's reality.
you're good as "passer by"

:')

penguin

silly
funny
cute
cuddly
where a heart longs to rest
stays when your away

did you know that when a penguin found his mate, he will stay with her forever?

.♥.


would you be my penguin?

:">









"My Paper Heart"

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that
I know moving on is,
Easiest when I am around you.

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips, are sealed for her
My tongue is,
Tied to, a dream of being with you
To settle for less, is not what I prefer

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

Summer time, the nights they are so long
The leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me

.♥.

there's no point of being depressed,
with or without, life must go on.
i am strong...
i am..
i will.

.♥.

missin u..

spaghetti loop of "Life"

boot sectors are down,
memory usage burns,
accessibility hangs,
disabled structured operation
through frequent crashing
and processor intrusions
now unable handle exception.
fed by zeros and ones,
pushed by procedures and routines,
journalizing new instructions
in ext4 filesystems.
for new operating system
minimizing bugs and trojans
and flush some obsolete commands.
with every queue delay instance,
be reading your data compilation
and help this ocular lens
be impenetrable by infections.
to jam and freeze the keys from
automated and redundantly pressing " :(( "

-0 ^_^ 0- a year round music for 2011

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions, they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

(Wish) cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

Bury me
You thought your problems were gone
Carry me
Away, away, away

(Swing) Swing, swing
From the tangles of (swing, swing, swing)
My heart (my heart) is crushed by a former love
Can you help me find a way to carry on again?

sad thoughts

hate is indescribable feeling
a thought that swallows the being
whether fallen or have risen
nothing matters, unwilling to listen
blinded and tricked with sound maiden
lifeless now and has no meaning
hope desired and love dreaming
nothing, all crumbled and beaten
all sad thoughts will be living
as a curse on life never have been
will hate and will always hating