cast away

what is it to be like or how would it be?

to place yourself in an island.
to lock yourself in darkness
to leave the once sanity you have
to embrace darkness and solidarity
to be void and be lower than any animal
to dream death and be dead

where is the old mozart?

bursting blood within this heart
splattered against the wall
agony and despair echoes in silence
covered with the betrayal
humming along the corridors
of life and cold stillness
clown's laugh painting happiness
as an overture art to impress
and have life not be bothersome
stroking the brush and to form a masterpiece
using water as a paint under shady sun
adapting beliefs without a clear point
now the strokes are different
and doubting myself with good mistakes
and honest regrets.
and never again to trust a cross.

i will always love you

times in our lives came to an end.
accepted the reality and
don't have to argue as each's fiend.
you have been part of me, someone He sent.
there are reasons why, reasons we should use to mend
in our hearts and in our minds.
we should be happy of what we have,
you found yours, and i found mine.
but this would never stop the care and
guidance to our good daughters.
they need you as how you needed care
guidance as how we were brought up.
i don't mind if what's with you,
and i don't mind the gap between us.
just "please" don't loose your patience as a mother.
our kids need you more, more than anything.

the dark creation

mingling on the heights of heavens
one unique dark spot on the midst
of light and shinning angels.
not minding the troubles on the eyes
of the conservative guardians.

i, the dark creation,
damned and forsaken.
all wanted is a universal freedom,
to have circles to roam on,
speak without the fear of being damned.

though my soul is wrapped with sadness,
happy i am for passing and crossing your paths.
i may not be that good for the group standards,
but will redirect those who are seeking happiness.
and give spirit to those who are breathless.

i, the dark creation,
unworthy to be part of circulation.
all wanted is a universal freedom,
to look upon equally on everyone.
seek understanding on every minds.

faith would always be on doubt on your eyes
keeping calm with your unfavorable sights.
worry not, i'll just be a passer-by who soon leaves.
whatever the goodness taught, and affections
will always dwell on my soul, and is part of my standards.

i, the dark creation,
a flesh and weak with temptations.
all wanted is a universal freedom,
with no walls of  discrimination.
will always remember how to be a human.

cycling curses

once i thought it would be a great symbol,
good one to keep and have with wherever you would be.
no matter how simple, or how elegant it would be.
to wear it would mean a life, an overwhelming joy.
but then not all are blessed with that life nor joy.
a redundant fluctuation of what has been started,
a ghost in life that fills me curses and damnation.
and snaps me again and again, and again.


 "ring"

oblivion

there are thoughts sought to be undying.
notes in mind brought out to be soothing.
they are, and they will always be hanging.
sighs in life, breathes for the emotional being.
signs to prove, i still kept a valuable realm.
or the so-called bond was still existing.
 well, is it that convincing? most probably not,
even for an inch. it will take a lifetime to prove something.
a lifetime to make a heart mending. lifetime to adjust the heartstrings.
a forever to make you back on these arms.

2hrs

time is like an infinite stance
on a journey energizing each
one of us to pursue our paths,
binding us to new realms
we can only pass on it once,
filling us with wisdom and ideals
and responsibility for the young ones.

time is an enduring education
for each mind open for experimentation
on life, career, and emotion
enabling us to understand most situation
to grow and share our intuition

time is an inevitable challenge
on everything we decide to change
or every moment we want to retain

time is the one who will define our lives
who will define our beings
and will define us from life.